Beautiful soul, I need to clear up what is probably the single greatest misunderstanding in modern Western spirituality: **Tantra has almost nothing to do with what the West thinks Tantra is.** When most Westerners hear "Tantra," they think: sex.
Tantric sex workshops. Sacred sexuality retreats. Eye-gazing with strangers while someone plays a crystal bowl in the background.
Yoni eggs and lingam massage and "cultivating sexual energy" as a spiritual practice. And look - I'm not here to shame anyone's sexual expression or healing journey.
Conscious sexuality has its place. But calling it "Tantra" is like calling your backyard barbecue "Vedic fire ceremony." The two things share approximately one ingredient and nothing else.