Beautiful soul, let me introduce you to the yoga that most spiritual seekers admire from a distance and very few actually practice: **Jnana Yoga** - the path of knowledge. Not book knowledge.
Not conceptual understanding. Not the ability to quote scriptures at dinner parties.
Jnana is **direct, unmediated, experiential knowledge of reality** - the kind of knowing that doesn't inform the mind but transforms the knower.
The kind of knowing that, once it arrives, burns away every identity you've ever constructed and leaves you standing naked in the blinding light of what you actually are.