Let me ruin a beautiful illusion for you, sweetheart: you have never, not once in your entire life, perceived reality as it actually is. Not because you're broken.
Not because you're doing something wrong. Not because you need a better meditation practice or a more expensive retreat.
But because the very mechanism of your perception is built from stored impressions - karmic memory - that filters, distorts, and pre-interprets every single sensory input before it reaches your conscious awareness.
You're not looking at the world.